Another Stupid Blog
This is yet another exercise in narcissism. I will not deny it. I’ve stared into my own glorious digital reflection and become fixated by it. Hopefully by being fixated as such, I can ignore the cravings for chocolate and Haagen Dazs (if you know how to correctly spell it, you REALLY love it) long enough to lose a few. Being a 22 year old woman is an awkward time. You stand astride your teens and sophomoric concerns of what your friends think and how you look and if you can go shopping or not, and adult concerns of what your friends think and how you look and if you can…well, so I haven’t really grown. But at least age has given me slightly more introspection than I once had. Now I realize the destructive nature of insecurity, and Im attempting to do something about it. Women know what I mean. You can see it when you walk into a party and all the other girls give you “the look”. It’s that look that every woman in every country on the planet knows. I’m sure even burqa-clad Afghan women do it. It’s the bottom-to-top scan and dismissive pass of the eyes meant to denigrate the observed as being a lesser woman than the observer. We all are victims to it, as well as being victimizers. At once its meant to display superiority while also a dead give-away of our own deep-rooted insecurity. I’m trying to reprogram my own behavior in this regard, but reversing evolution is hard. I’m sure Paleolithic women sat around their well-tended campfires throwing squinty-eyed darts at those ugly chicks at the other campfire. Surely our wood smells better and has less ants than theirs. So my hope with this blog is to pass along my own observations and hard-learned lessons and be of some use to you. It will be an interesting experience, full of mistakes and tragedies, but at least we don’t build campfires anymore.
Posted at 08:37AM Feb 29, 2008 in General |