Matti Karel

May 8- Wanting to Unwanted

why is it we always want what we cant have? i mean really? why is it human nature to do this? I am mulling over an unhealthy crush i have developed. I have been trying to get over it for 3 weeks now... for me if a crush lasts longer than a week i am in trouble. I cant have him, that is all there is too it, so why bother? why do i still feel this way? the ridiculous part is that he is one of those rare guys who didnt interest me until we started talking. we had been running into one another all year and just never sat and talked. he is the genuine article of everything i want in a man's mind. i am sure if i nitpicked enough i could get a few bad things about him, but at the same time it is damn intriguing. I even went to the bar this weekend, got roaring drunk and had an incredible makeout session with a guy i met that night. Normally this would prompt me to get over my current crush and at least think on this new creature for a few minutes... funny thing is I LIKED the fact that he was as stranger so i wouldnt need to bother talking to him again. I am not that girl! i dont just do things like that without knowing the person. I am usually more interested in the mind than in the carnal desires of the flesh, but that is all i wanted from this guy, and i am back onto my unhealthy crush. I dont even know if i want to get over this. Maybe I can just admire from a distance...

Posted at 11:25AM Jun 20, 2007 by Matti M Karel in General  |  Comments[2]